GUEST EXPERIENCE TEAM

I have been asking God on His plans for me in this season of my life.

Well, I used to do alot more in church as a youth and eventually as I kinda got caught up in the grind, I did a lot lesser. And at the same time, advertising's workload was unpredictable.
Most of the time, I could hardly make plans after work. After work plans are usually impromptu.
Yah, I know sounds quite sad.
But I pretty much got used to it, until... I had enough and so yes, now I am out.

Ok, but my point is. I am really excited.
Excited because my spirit is buzzing with joy as I dream and imagine what can come in this season.
God once spoke to me to fill in the gaps, be a pillar in His House.
I was not satisfied with that, I kept wondering... what exactly God? I was anxious, impatient and I wanted a more concrete answer- like, what can I do exactly?

At the point of time (last year), all God said was "If I am with you, all will work out fine". So okay can, I decided to just have faith and stay anchored.

This year, things are slowly starting to unfold.

I attended the Heart of God Church - Guest Experience Team's launch, and I am very thrilled and proud to be part of this.
It marks new beginning of an adventure, really excited for what is to come.

It was a really fun night.
I was greeted by this when I reached the event-

Limited edition notebook just for #GuestExperienceTeam leh.

Well of cos' - we had really fun icebreaker.

Besides the point that the kiasu overly thrilled me won at Bingo and got the limited edition pen....
It was interesting to know that there are sibling teams in the ministry, and even Mother + Daughter team hahaha.
Maybe some of you will get to be served by these super family teams!

Dinner spread that night. #happytum

#MustWin becos of the Limited Edition Pen.

So my sis (Jieru) told me, "I knew something was up when I saw this photo on your Instagram. Really blur picture dont care, no filter- dont care, messy hair dont care" - ya. I am quite competitive hor, wahahahahhah.

Okay so... I was the first to submit my Bingo sheet lah of cos. HAHA.

Here's my gift:

I can now use this for my future duties lor. Cool ma right. Full set. HAHAHA.

Okay, fun aside. 

Hui-Ting and I were buzzing to each other even right before we got confirmed that we are in the ministry. We could envision ourselves serving together already in our New Home.
It is a done deal!

I was thankful to sit there and listen to Jian Ming share his heart out on the vision of the ministry.
It is really a privilege to be part of the launch, pioneer batch! 

It will be where the world meets and experience church through world class service (:

And through what Jian Ming shared, I knew it was God's assurance to me.
"Remember My plans for you? Here you go"
It is indeed always about TEAM and... when Jian Ming shared about filling/standing in the gap - everything clicked in the spirit.

I know I can never outgive God. I just had to trust.
As I sat there listening, I was reminded of myself serving in the many different ministries as a youth.
I was in really quite a number of ministries before (Photog, Hospi, Livefeed, Usher, Post-Pro, Decor, Fashion...) & having to do a lot lesser made me a little sad when I started working + when I drifted away...

Every bit of my youth spirit is awaken, and I am even more excited now because I know I can do alot more in greater measures now that I am older, and gained experiences. Best years indeed.

Words can't express enough, just..
Get ready to be WOW by Nov/Dec 2015.

ADVERTISING LIFE

Today marks my last day working in the advertising industry, for now at least (not sure if I'll get back in) Haha.
It's been a good 2-3 years in bigger agencies and I had my fair share of experience working in a local when I just graduated.

Well, a friend once told me - "advertising really is for a certain breed of people hor? either you are cut out for it or you will just not fit in".

To the above statement, well, it makes me wonder too if I am cut out for advertising sometimes.
Most people deem me to be the super extroverted girl. Mmm, but actually I DO need my hamsterball time. And definitely not that kind that makes friend everywhere I go. Hahah.
I take awhile to warm up to people... hahaha.

I love the freedom and open working environment.
But on the other hand, the downside? - Yes, be ready for crazy work hours, be ready to meet expectations that are out of the world. Be ready to get your hands dirty to do the stupid things you do not even agree with. Some people say, advertising is a con man's world. The campaigns are not truthful, the creative works are unreal.

I kinda struggled a little, juggling between being a good Christian vs. fitting into the industry (yes, its like 70% of my colleagues smokes, every other day they are drinking too. hahah, but it isnt that bad in DDB, the drinking culture is a whole load heavier here in Grey.)
But I think it is do-able, at the end of the day, it is about being able to relate to people and stepping into their boats. At the same time, to be wise and be led by the HS.
It is not easy, but well... I am glad that I managed to sow some seeds nonetheless.

Will I miss advertising?
I am not too sure myself. I think I might. The next place I am heading should fit me fine too (: I don't think it is going to be all corporate too, so I am quite excited!
A little anxious, but... let's see what God has in-stored for me.

It's been a good ride. Glad to have met amazing people and bonded some friendships through this journey (:

x

ASSURANCE x FEAR OF GOD

It's almost Friday! (: Been a tad busier at work after getting back from the camp.
My daily rambles and what's not usually goes to my Dayre, while the more substantial stuffs are blogged here haha.

I meant to share more about the Gzone retreat.
Haha. Basically we had great fun, hahaha.
Team building games (the inner competitive spirits surfaced hahahahahaha), eat alot, cup noodles supper (imagine a few girls under one roof hahahahaha), eat more, massage and eat some more. HAHAHA. 

The 2nd night when Garrett shared left me really really touched by God's love in my life.
Here's to share a snippet of what I wrote in my notebook (:

"Finding joy to do the things of God, and guarding my heart in the deep foundations that anchored me right from the very beginning of my walk. Gotta make pre-made decisions in life so that when I am caught in tough situations, I know what my choices can be. God's love covers all weaknesses, but we should never take that for granted and let the fear of God also guard my heart. Having the fear of God is also really important because you will then begin to really walk circumspectly.
Be in the world, and not of the world. Let not the self desire/ things of the world will not start taking over my heart. God, let Your will be above all else and that I will walk into my destiny- I know You will guide me and take me into your intent for me. Every struggles, decisions, choices that I make, give me wisdom to think of Your love and have the fear of God. God is the God of ALL. He knows everyone of our hearts (v.Matthew 22:32)"

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It really apt for this season- things are starting to unfold (:
We had an amazing CG session yesterday!
Had a really good time just spending time in the Spirit.
Prayer x Worship.
I was initially praying for myself- work, things on my mind etc...
& as I prayed, I just felt really assured that I need not worry, but when I begin to put Him first, and others first, things will all work out.
So I started praying for my church, pastors, leaders, my family's salvation, my friends... and I felt happy (: Happy that I prayed for them. Happy to know that all will be well because God knows us better than we know ourselves. He knows all situations (:

WHAT IS YOUR STORY TO TELL?

Friday self-reflection mode on this morning. Haha.Oh happy Friday by the way! (long weekend ahead!) yay.

What is your story to tell?

There are many different stories we hear in our life. We hear stories from the media about the latest happenings around us. We also hear stories from parents/grandparents about their past and younger days. Of course there are also stories about gossips of people around us, from friends and colleagues.

Many stories we hear in our lives, we have forgotten. 
But some always stay in our hearts. 

The woman who gave up her alabaster flask. 
Something that is precious to her for God... that costly fragrant oil. 
Everyone thought it was a crazy thing to do, but God was touched by her action. 
(Matthew 26:6-13)

It is said in v13 that, “wherever this gospel is preached in the whole world, what this woman has done will also be told as a memorial to her.”
God wants our stories to be heard.

So while I was in that reflecting zone, I was wondering-
If my life is a movie/story, is it exciting? 
Do I have a story worth watching/ telling? Or is there anything to be told?
Maybe it is a good story, maybe it's exciting. But does it enrich? Or is it just entertaining?
If it is just entertaining, it might be forgotten over time.

The woman with the alabaster flask story is of eternal.
What she has done is- His story. 

What is yours?

Let my lifesong sing to You.

SLOWLY BUT SURELY

Always remembering that session we sat there watching the movie "Lions for Lamb". 
It's been a few years back since that session, I can't even remember when to be honest. But the take away from that session remains so so precious.
This is... growing up. Sometimes it feels like everything is coming at you. All the decisions we have to worry and think about sometimes. So many choices, decisions to make on our own. These are things perhaps we hate about growing up. 
But yet again, seeing it in another perspective makes me really comforted. It is a good thing with this 'challenge'. It means that I am... indeed growing up. It means to take responsibility over my life, choices and decisions. This means, me stepping into God's plans for me.

I will always remember that my Pastors +Tan Seow How & Pastor Cecilia Chan have taught me to make pre-made decisions in my life. That way, when we are at our lowest, our pre-made decisions based on our convictions allow us to make better choices. 

I can't say that I have made the best decisions in life. 
I don't, and I know it. I try to, and I'm still trying daily. We all do, isn't it? 

In fact,  I made a really bad decision just as I stepped into the workforce after almost a year.
For almost 1.5years, I drifted away from God.
I gave myself many excuses to the decisions I made during this period of time. 
My insecurities and emotions got me making wrong choices most of the time. Many days I would feel too tired emotionally to do anything and rather 'nua'. 
I knew He was there all along, I know I still love Him... but I was hesitant and often made decisions in my own strength.

Cut the long story short, I am glad God eventually picked me up and shook me out of that emotional wreck I was.

I remember Garrett once told me that it is important we take responsibilities about the decisions and choices we make in our lives. We all have to learn. If we make the wrong choice, we accept it and we grow from it. 
Nothing is ever wasted.

I learned the hard way lah, oh sigh.

But that's fine, slowly but surely. 

JOURNEY FOR A DECADE

Almost half a year into 2015. May is coming to an end and I am pretty hyped up for June.
2015 marks many significant moments. For one, its been a decade of my salvation.

Looking back, I am glad Heart of God Church is the place I found God.
It's been quite a journey I have to say. I have had my fair share of ups and downs. Come to realise that things that used to matter doesn't anymore. Many people have come and left. There are also times I wanted to give up but held on nonetheless.
But one thing I am certain of is that God's promises are true and that His love is constant throughout this 10 years.

I chanced upon my little old blog just recently (my writings as a 16 year old convent girl).
A little embarrassed I am (who am I kidding, actually very)
Haha. But this little entry made me smile amidst me cringing at every other entries:

I remember a week before 10 April 2005, I headed for a concert in this brown maroon building located at Clemenceau Ave, Dhoby Ghaut. My favourite handsome cousin Ivan invited me! (of cos' I would agree) & I was touched and moved by the presence of God that very day. 

I did struggle with many frivolous matters that are precious to a 16 year old teenager girl. It was hard to let go of what was precious and commit. But I'm glad I met people nice people like Pamela and Esther on the day of the concert. They made it easier for me to step out of my comfort zone and take a step of faith to attend my first service on 10 April, 10 years back.

I was taking my O levels that year. And I remember that I was hurt by some boy that I was interested in at that time. But above these, reading this post makes me remember that my heart was joyful that very day I went for my first service. Everything else were not major because of the decision to let God enter.

It's been 10 years now and I am a working adult.
Let's be honest about it, of course a Christian's walk ain't a bed of roses.
I am only human, very ordinary.
I do struggle with work woes like anyone else and whatsoever, but I now have God's assurances that I hold on to.

One thing that doesn't change- that joyful heart knowing my heart stays true to God's love.
Thankful tonight to know I have made the right decisions in my life, that is to fight on. I held on to His promises and I am still be found in this Home.